I just watched The Constant on abc.com. That is my favorite Lost episode of all time, I don't think I will ever like another one as much as that one. I love, love, love Desmond and Penny. That phone call just gets to me every time I see it. I used to have it saved on my YouTube videos, but I guess they had to take it down, as it's not there anymore. All of that I'm sorry Penny and I love you and I'll never stop looking for you I promise. Oh God.
And why it calls to me so much I don't know

as I feel that all desire and romantic love is dead in me. But that's not something that I want to get into on here. Today was rainy and cool, and I was home mostly all day, with all of my guys. I feel alone and just into myself, altho I don't think that I am lonely today, or else it is just so much a part of me now that I don't recogonize it as such. I guess I better find a book, to lose myself in a story and keep my brain active. Namaste. (too into Lost today I think)